so so so

It's so hard to start again. Maybe I'm simply lost, and you can't find me and it somehow gives me the `it's all been done before` feeling.
But i`ll tell you one thing for sure - i'm tired of my life being a mess, I'm gonna sort it out in this summer. At least i will try.
Men are hard to understand you know. Gives me headaches. Why was it worth it again? oh. yes. Remembered.

I'm kinda happy now. Thank you. ^^

Oh, my.

I haven't seen you in ages. Where have you been?
How is it possible that only seeing your face brings me so many memories...
I'm good, but, wow, you look great!
I never in my wildest dreams thought that i will ever see you again. Our `end` was cut with the sharpest knife, because any other options where just too painful. 
Yeah maybe your right.
Don't say that i haven't changed, because I've tried so hard to leave that little, childish girl behind. 
Oh, ... wait what? No, No. nononono.  

Hopes still don't get you anywhere

I am angry, sad and disappointed. And I wish you' d be here to help me. I wish you cared. And as hard as i' m trying, I know that I still haven't been able to show you that caring and love is two different things. I know you love me, baby, of course i do. But do I know that you care? No, not the slightest, because somewhere along the line you stopped caring if i'm happy or sad. You stopped linking yourself with my happiness and started looking at me as if I was just another person in your life, and you don' t link yourself with my problems, even more, you wish I stopped dragging you into them.And I know what you are thinking right now - she is overreacting again. 
So what if I am?