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Dear, oh-you-so-well-know -who,

Don't you dare to make me choose between a friend and a lover if you can't fulfill bouth of the roles.

A runaway

Hey,

So you take the person most important to you ( a friend, a mother, a sister or lover, anyone as long as it keeps you from loneliness) and a bag with the things you can’t live with out. It will probably be full of most hilarious things like toothbrush and pencils that seems to be strange to call as most important things, but they surely helps you keep on living in peace. Than you take a dozen of thing that makes you happy and dozen that makes you smile. To me it would be something delicious ‘ cause I’m all in for food. And something to smile for could be some pictures if you are ready to take the past with you, or some songs for the right feeling. Than you take something that totally represents you. Like the doll of childhood or the story of the book you love the most. Add something you just can’t say no to and wolla. You are ready. You’ll have a ground to work to. You’ll have something that always reminds you of what you truly are, something to help you when the new world seems to be a bit more complicated than you’d like and you’ll have a hand to help you when you fall. It’s not at all that complicated and of course it’s not simple. This, If you have everything described in here, honey I’ll never understand why you would like a new beginning. Maybe something went wrong at the place you found yourself. Than take this all and start all over. You will have the help. Believe me, you are not the only one desiring for a runaway.

Don’t be afraid if there is something you have not found yet, we always keep on missing something. Still, go.

So we took our things and left. Under the stars and in the rain, you’ll never now, when the place you search for might appear. And the road is full of adventures and emotions.

Maybe I could call this home tonight?

I’m voting for you.

Hey,

sorry for being absent for so long. I had lot on my mind and on my plate. The truth is I’m scared. Of lot of things, but this time one of them is too serious for me to handle. I'm sorry if I haven't been myself this week, but you have no idea what I went through and I hope you'll never have to understand it.

I'm afraid of my friend, really, really afraid, but I can't speak it out loud because than it'll be real and I don't want it to be real. Am I a bad person?

I don't have a religion to fall back to or anything as strong and of course I know that it’s my own fault, and maybe that's why I feel so sick. I believe in destiny and ...

I don't know what to say to make her feel better. I can hear the fear in her voice, but all I can say is some ridiculous babbling about my every day life to make her laugh. I always believed that laughing, smiling makes the bad thing go away. Do they really?

Most of all I want to be your sunshine, but I can't even light my own way.

But I still love you with eveything I got, so get better soon. I miss you next to me.

*me