apologizing

Dear friend,

He said:
"That girl is amazing. She can hide the most painful emotions behind an innocent smile. She is made to be a poet, hiding tears behind most casual things. She is the kind of poet that will lead little girls into depression and death. World would be happier without her, but it can't really exist without her." about me.
Also he never said I'm nice, because he knew I'm not.
He knew a lot of things, but he never knew me.

I'll tell you if you ask.

But I hope you know I'm not the girl he talks, I was, but not anymore. It was my choice to change and I did. Oh. The thing I wanted to tell you is - thank you, for putting up with me, I know it's hard sometimes.

And the thing I'm starting to learn from today is - that past should be left behind, it's absurd do be jealous on something you can't change, also, you have to believe when people say they care, because if you start to wonder.. it gets really messy.