The blinds

Dear, reader,

I wonder if real trust even exists. If there is something I know for sure, than that's the fact that `me` now is not capable of that kind of thing. Did I surprise you? Do you think it's weird? Or do you like me doubt every light you meet in this world? Actually it's not at all about the doubt, even not about fear of suffering, it's just .. I really don't know how to trust a person. It's like the button which allows me to trust is turned off. And it's not like I don't believe in people around me, no not at all, just trust and believing is a bit different, don't you think? Or maybe I’m not making any sense now. Sorry.

I think trust is more about feeling safe and that’s what I can’t seem to grasp.

`Katrai lietai savs laiks.` Heh.

*me