rolling in the deep

You leave and I'm hanging on empty. It's like none of this matter to you anymore.
Everything as cheap as possible, as fast as possible. Nothing is special anymore to you, am i right?

on or off

Do you remember when we first met?

I know it was winter, February 6th, in a dark night. I don't exactly remember it myself, but so you have told me. So it was a very bright room with people in white rushing somewhere, and I probably was crying. And all red. I doubt I knew who you are at that moment, but I' m sure I realised that the warmth I had lost was found in your arms, in your embrace. And for all it's woths I know that the first true smile I ever saw was yours.

I.H.Y

Dear friend,

I love characters that know what they are , what they want, and where are they going. That's all i want to be and nothing i am.

I found this on one of my writings and it kind of clicked today. Sorry for being so busy and not being busy at all. Sorry for all the things I haven't told you and for all the things I haven't done. But i want you to know at least this -
I'll try harder. For myself and for you. Cause it's gonna take some while for this storm to pass.

Not at all

Dear father,

Mistake of your life? You must be fucking kidding me!
Keep it in yourself for some months and I'll leave you mumbling here. I'll take the mistake with me, because i love her and i need her. As much as love and need you.

ah

I kinda feel like I made a fool of myself. That's what made me sad. I'm sorry.

It's gonna be alright.


right?

IFY

I found you sitting across the fireplace looking unsure (doubting everything you lay your eyes on - me, fire, time, love)

I found you getting drunk and loosing yourself to nothing (because you were hurt and bleeding and I wasn't in any position to offer comfort)

I found your fingers under the blanket (And I thought I'd die right than and there if you took them away from me. )

I found you drinking beer and playing novuss with your friends (And I wondered why I agreed to come)

I found you in our first date looking stressed and somehow happy ( And looking at your smile I knew exactly why had I come.)

I found you saying `I love you` in a mix of ` I love ice cream` and ` I love sea` and I just fell.

I found you fancying me in a way I could never imagine ( As if it was still 80`s and I was the greatest thing on earth)

I found you calling me in the weirdest name I have never heard before (Trying to understand why)
And... well.. 

I found you.

don't

Dear friend,

we were talking about the things that makes us cry today, and I kinda new my answer right away - giving your all and still not being enough... That scares the shit out of me.

And I'm scared sensless now.
I have no idea, how many times will I need to set this right. So please, please don't ask for now. It's too important.