IFY

I found you sitting across the fireplace looking unsure (doubting everything you lay your eyes on - me, fire, time, love)

I found you getting drunk and loosing yourself to nothing (because you were hurt and bleeding and I wasn't in any position to offer comfort)

I found your fingers under the blanket (And I thought I'd die right than and there if you took them away from me. )

I found you drinking beer and playing novuss with your friends (And I wondered why I agreed to come)

I found you in our first date looking stressed and somehow happy ( And looking at your smile I knew exactly why had I come.)

I found you saying `I love you` in a mix of ` I love ice cream` and ` I love sea` and I just fell.

I found you fancying me in a way I could never imagine ( As if it was still 80`s and I was the greatest thing on earth)

I found you calling me in the weirdest name I have never heard before (Trying to understand why)
And... well.. 

I found you.

don't

Dear friend,

we were talking about the things that makes us cry today, and I kinda new my answer right away - giving your all and still not being enough... That scares the shit out of me.

And I'm scared sensless now.
I have no idea, how many times will I need to set this right. So please, please don't ask for now. It's too important.